Leaving US with a good record [closed]

Recently, I had my asylum court hearing and I was refused asylum status. My attorney recommended appealing but I want something concrete i.e. papers and future. Appealing unfortunately would give me small percentage to actually get something in the future. My plan is to move to Europe(Ireland/Poland) where my boyfriend resides to study Computer Science, however I’m not sure if my current case can have any negative impact on the student visa process. I was told that even if I voluntary leave before appeal deadline the deportation order would be filled anyway, meaning that I will have a bad record.

I found something on the internet regarding voluntary leaving but when asked about it in the office I was told that nothing can be done [link to article].

It is worth mentioning that I meet all requirements. Now I’m having thoughts that they don’t want to actually help me with anything besides appealing which would give them a nice profit. Is there something I could do in this case?

The lawyer also said that there’s a possibility that the case filed against me from the DHS could be withdrawn which I will be notified in a week time. All I want to do is leave on good terms which impossible right now.

PS. We know that the easiest way would be to get married but I don’t want to rush things up just to get papers, although this might be the only way in.

Thank you.